Back in 2017 the day after I discovered the memes I was the most suicidal of my life. Two friends stepped up the most. One contacted the meme maker on Instagram and got the first apology. That apology pulled me back from the brink of hopelessness and killing myself that day.
The second friend got the Bye Fellipe page to take down their post and that wiped out all the shares and nasty comments.
Later on in June I'd be devastated when that first friend unfriended me completely.
Good friends have tried to help me cope and heal over the past year. One used to text me daily and I only made it through much of last year because of her.
This year my friends have helped find where these memes have resurfaced, helped me battle the pages, and the nasty commenters.
Having them to talk to helps. Having their aid in this gives me fuel for fighting the suicidal thoughts.
My family never really embraced mental health. All I've got are friends, neighbors, and my therapist.
Sometimes I can't do everything friends try to do to help though. My anxiety has been so high that eating out with them seems impossible. I can barely make it through getting groceries or doing laundry as it is.
Seeing a movie is easier though. Nobody watching me in a darkened theater.
If you feel suicidal try reaching out to your friends. Keep in mind they may not know exactly what to say or do to help, but they don't want you to die.
Seek help. Talk to family and friends and don't bottle it up inside. Get a therapist. There's nothing wrong with getting help.
Everybody needs a little help from their friends at times.
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